So what a day! WHo the heck invented working at the weekend! I hate it with a vengence!!!!!! Im in the retail trade and so unfortunatly Saturdays keep me in a job. Today was a good day we were hitting above  our targets. However i was just not having a good day. But then it drastically got miraculously a whole heap better as the man of my dreams, otherwise known as my  other half walked in with my favorite addiction fresh caramel latte!:D PRAISE THE LORD!

It was miracuolus for two reasons. 1) i did not know he was coming in so it was lovely to see him, and a great surprise he is so amazing that just seeing him makes my day better and….

2) i had lost  my morning latte all  over the shop floor, so another was totally amazing, but it was so wonderful and sweet of him to think about me i am sooo lucky!

So today got a bit bloody! My self and a friend and my woofs were out for morning constitutional, when as per usual my eldest decided to give into her squirrel obsession! This usually means she gets about four foot up in a tree after chasing one ! HOwever today was a tad different. she actually managed to catch one! So im there calling my woof off and she is having is world war 3 with a grey bushy squirrel who is giving as good as it gets! Any way eventually she came bac, and her face and mouth were totally covered in blood!

I totally freaked! All i had in my head was my dog was a murderer! Any way she got substantially told off ! We headed down to the water to clean her off, only to have the squirrel come back for a second go!!! Ah well at least she hadnt killed off!

Once we got her cleaned off, discovered the squirrel had actually bitten her a few times, so that may have been why there was so much blood!

Any way now here in the evening having taken her to the vets for an antibiotic shot just to be on the safe side, and reflecting back the day has been a bit manic!

So life takes another turn and we start all over again! As one door closes another one opens! They are both so totally true, mu contract  ended ad ive managed to find another job, its not my ideal job but it is regular work that will the pay the bills and keep my mortgage paid. It does have some nice things about it, like i can get some of my favorite things at amazing prizes!

I know though that this isnt me forever i know that i have plans and other things that are bigger and better in life, so for now im grate full for the stability the job provides and a chance to get some stuff stableised, i look forward and now start to make plans i havent been to look to before, i plan for my future, my hopes and dreams, and above all my God Given destiny!

Looking forward

When something in our life goes away there is a hole, its a different hole for everyone of us big, small, different shapes, and some with an unfathomable depth!

My friend recently lost his dog, and i know what pain that causes. People say they are mans best friend, and a truer word has never been uttered.They is a void there, no barking when the postman arrives, no one at your side when you walk, no more bins having been scavenged through, no one licking and tickling your feet with their cold wet nose.

They annoy us, they bark, they chew things, they poop, but our lives are so very much less without them. Their love is unconditional no matter how many times you tell them “NO”. I tell my friend  he is  in a better place with more bones to chew than he know s how, and limitless postmen to chase!

They truly are our best friends no one else in the world knows just how to snuggle up in the tinyist gap just to let you know you are not alone when you most need it!

We miss you and are so grateful you came into our lives!

Sometimes things in life just happen and they arent ever what we want or ever what we expected, but they still happen and we just have to deal and cope and try to continue living, sometimes occasionaly there is solice to be found in anothers words, like these written below.

When things go wrong, as they sometimes will,
When the road you’re trudging seems all uphill,
When the funds are low and the debts are high,
And you want to smile, but you have to sigh,
When care is pressing you down a bit-
Rest if you must, but don’t you quit.

Life is queer with its twists and turns,
As every one of us sometimes learns,
And many a fellow turns about
When he might have won had he stuck it out.
Don’t give up though the pace seems slow -
You may succeed with another blow.

Often the goal is nearer than
It seems to a faint and faltering man;
Often the struggler has given up
When he might have captured the victor’s cup;
And he learned too late when the night came down,
How close he was to the golden crown.

Success is failure turned inside out -
The silver tint in the clouds of doubt,
And you never can tell how close you are,
It might be near when it seems afar;
So stick to the fight when you’re hardest hit -
It’s when things seem worst that you must not quit.

Unknown

when words fail us!

So ive been to the capital, and its still there! which is a relief, to say the least.

There was a tranquility there i never experienced this time as we stayed near the river. I had an amazing time and as always shared the phenominal experience with most important person in my life! the place is awsome and it always be and it will never cease to amaze when i go there the huge buildings, the structures the water, the atmosphere, the people, the fact im in coffee shop heaven and around ever corner there is a new one which looks beautifull with hand made pastries sitting in the  window waiting to be eaten but the experience would not be an experience at all without having that special person with you, that person that knows you like no other in the world, that sees exactly what you are thinking before the words leave your lips.

On the main i Love my life, and i am so blessed to have this amazing person in my life to share so many beautiful things with with!

My job / career means i am active every working day! Not just on my feet full on active the kind of active folk do for a hobby, so really im not convinced i need to exercise im under weight as it is, but believe it or not for the first time in my life ive joined a gym!

There are a few reasons for this crazy idea, the gym has multiple benefits, it works on part of my body which maybe dont get that much use, helps my core stability which will help with my disability, hopefully muscle will weigh more than fat so maybe my jeans will stop falling down! And there is also a great pool and sauna & steam area at the gym and i LOVE the water, and the best thing i get to spend more time with the most important person in my life!

I was in pain and obviously no one likes that so i had to sort it out. So i went to the emergency dentist. Only to my horror to find out that 5 yrs without a dentist was very very bad!

In total i need 1 tooth re-building after my old dentist put a filling in that was to big! 2 extractions and about 4 fillings ARGH! I hate dentists and was petirfied.

The dentist said that he thought if he gave me 2 temporary fillings and 1 extraction that would make me pain free.

Needless to say i gritted my teeth and got on with it!

Now im one tooth less and 2 temporay fillings more and feeling ERGH!

Just when you think the end is near!

As  fast i think im getting there something else crops up, but things are kinda rosy better than they have been for a considerable while now, so there are things to be thankful for At last im finding my feet.

I had forgoton how much a routine can help and bring organisation and peace, as well as the total chaos of relising im working that many hours ive forgot everything other than when i need to be at work!!

So for right now at this moment in time thats me!

I was told by a friend i need to forgive! I totally agree, so you think whats the problem?

How do you forgive someone when the pain is fresh and you know that the battle isnt over yet?

As a person of moral standing and with a strong faith, i know i am called to have compassion and grace and to forgive people as my Lord and saviour died for me so that all my sins past  and present and yet to come could be forgiven so that i could have life  eternal.

However in reality it is not that simple, not when someone who you believed to Love you has attempted to destroy you in every way possible, and its hard to describe because you dont love that person anymore, and you dont want them, but when they are trying to damage you in every way possible, forgivness just isnt on the cards right now! To forgive at this moment would be like running out of fuel and loosing the power to see something through to the end!

My friend could not see or get a grip on that!

I know in time the Lord will heal, and forgiveness will come but not right now, the wounds are still bleeding!