2011

2010 ended and 2011 began. Nothing major to note apart from the puppies and a very good friend moving away.

I dont know the beginning from the end or which way is up i just know that this year i have to find some level of normailty and peace in my life.

Where has the summer gone?

Blimey September already?

Where has the summer gone? I sat at home the other evening and just could not believe it was dark already! My thoughts went like this in the summer of 2010 i worked! and raised puppies! Those are my summer achievements!

I dont want this to be the end of summer as i have still have windows and a back gate that need sanding and re-painting! But the thought of winter adventures in snow and dark nights in front of my open fire with my loved ones cant help but make me yearn for it just a little bit.

How do we mark the passing of a loved one?

How do we do it? Do we cry? Are we  sad? if our loved one has been suffering are we glad that the pain is over that they have moved on to a better place? I think the biggest question is what do we do about the big black hole that is left? How do we grieve?

For each person its different, we have different beliefs and cultures and every single one of us is an individual, i dont think there is a right way or a wrong way i dont think there are a specific set of feelings or actions that we should do or display. Its whatever helps the person, allows them to carry on.

The pain of loosing a loved one is huge for some of us its like our world stops and we have no idea what to do, they say time is a great healer and as time passes pain does diminish, and for me personally my memories pull me through i remember everything i did with my lost ones everything about them that made them a huge amazing part of my life, for every worde they spoke and breathed into my life that still impacts me today.

For all those we have lost we miss you immensely  but are so thankful you were in our lives and for everything you gave us, we will never forget you!

Sometimes you just dont know!

Thats me today, me head has gone mental, weekend off and i dont know what to do with it, im in pain and need to spend it sleeping but im desperate to make the most of it!

Life is a bit of a crossroads at the moment stuff i want to change, to make life better to be able to give more, to do more for God, to achieve the hings that i want in life, but its just how do i do it!!???

Serious thinking required!

Blessings unexpected!

So what a day! WHo the heck invented working at the weekend! I hate it with a vengence!!!!!! Im in the retail trade and so unfortunatly Saturdays keep me in a job. Today was a good day we were hitting above  our targets. However i was just not having a good day. But then it drastically got miraculously a whole heap better as the man of my dreams, otherwise known as my  other half walked in with my favorite addiction fresh caramel latte!:D PRAISE THE LORD!

It was miracuolus for two reasons. 1) i did not know he was coming in so it was lovely to see him, and a great surprise he is so amazing that just seeing him makes my day better and….

2) i had lost  my morning latte all  over the shop floor, so another was totally amazing, but it was so wonderful and sweet of him to think about me i am sooo lucky!

Squirrel attack!

So today got a bit bloody! My self and a friend and my woofs were out for morning constitutional, when as per usual my eldest decided to give into her squirrel obsession! This usually means she gets about four foot up in a tree after chasing one ! HOwever today was a tad different. she actually managed to catch one! So im there calling my woof off and she is having is world war 3 with a grey bushy squirrel who is giving as good as it gets! Any way eventually she came bac, and her face and mouth were totally covered in blood!

I totally freaked! All i had in my head was my dog was a murderer! Any way she got substantially told off ! We headed down to the water to clean her off, only to have the squirrel come back for a second go!!! Ah well at least she hadnt killed off!

Once we got her cleaned off, discovered the squirrel had actually bitten her a few times, so that may have been why there was so much blood!

Any way now here in the evening having taken her to the vets for an antibiotic shot just to be on the safe side, and reflecting back the day has been a bit manic!

New beginnings

So life takes another turn and we start all over again! As one door closes another one opens! They are both so totally true, mu contract  ended ad ive managed to find another job, its not my ideal job but it is regular work that will the pay the bills and keep my mortgage paid. It does have some nice things about it, like i can get some of my favorite things at amazing prizes!

I know though that this isnt me forever i know that i have plans and other things that are bigger and better in life, so for now im grate full for the stability the job provides and a chance to get some stuff stableised, i look forward and now start to make plans i havent been to look to before, i plan for my future, my hopes and dreams, and above all my God Given destiny!

Looking forward

A Tribute

When something in our life goes away there is a hole, its a different hole for everyone of us big, small, different shapes, and some with an unfathomable depth!

My friend recently lost his dog, and i know what pain that causes. People say they are mans best friend, and a truer word has never been uttered.They is a void there, no barking when the postman arrives, no one at your side when you walk, no more bins having been scavenged through, no one licking and tickling your feet with their cold wet nose.

They annoy us, they bark, they chew things, they poop, but our lives are so very much less without them. Their love is unconditional no matter how many times you tell them “NO”. I tell my friend  he is  in a better place with more bones to chew than he know s how, and limitless postmen to chase!

They truly are our best friends no one else in the world knows just how to snuggle up in the tinyist gap just to let you know you are not alone when you most need it!

We miss you and are so grateful you came into our lives!

Sometimes when words fail us!

Sometimes things in life just happen and they arent ever what we want or ever what we expected, but they still happen and we just have to deal and cope and try to continue living, sometimes occasionaly there is solice to be found in anothers words, like these written below.

When things go wrong, as they sometimes will,
When the road you’re trudging seems all uphill,
When the funds are low and the debts are high,
And you want to smile, but you have to sigh,
When care is pressing you down a bit-
Rest if you must, but don’t you quit.

Life is queer with its twists and turns,
As every one of us sometimes learns,
And many a fellow turns about
When he might have won had he stuck it out.
Don’t give up though the pace seems slow -
You may succeed with another blow.

Often the goal is nearer than
It seems to a faint and faltering man;
Often the struggler has given up
When he might have captured the victor’s cup;
And he learned too late when the night came down,
How close he was to the golden crown.

Success is failure turned inside out -
The silver tint in the clouds of doubt,
And you never can tell how close you are,
It might be near when it seems afar;
So stick to the fight when you’re hardest hit -
It’s when things seem worst that you must not quit.

Unknown

when words fail us!

The city

So ive been to the capital, and its still there! which is a relief, to say the least.

There was a tranquility there i never experienced this time as we stayed near the river. I had an amazing time and as always shared the phenominal experience with most important person in my life! the place is awsome and it always be and it will never cease to amaze when i go there the huge buildings, the structures the water, the atmosphere, the people, the fact im in coffee shop heaven and around ever corner there is a new one which looks beautifull with hand made pastries sitting in the  window waiting to be eaten but the experience would not be an experience at all without having that special person with you, that person that knows you like no other in the world, that sees exactly what you are thinking before the words leave your lips.

On the main i Love my life, and i am so blessed to have this amazing person in my life to share so many beautiful things with with!